I wanted to write this for all the nights I cried lonely tears.
Finding your soulmate is one of the greatest gifts God gives us. It's also something that's hard to describe. Some moments feel like you're living in a dream, while others leave you overthinking everything. But through it all, deep in your heart, you know this is the one your soul longs for.
Even the hard days are better when you know you have your person. The one who walks with you through every up and down. We push each other to grow, not out of pressure, but because it comes naturally. We’re a two-person team moving through life, facing each challenge side by side.
Each day, I get to know Alex more deeply, and somehow, I'm still in awe. It's like no matter how many days we have, I’ll always be fascinated by the way he thinks and the heart he carries.
When Alex proposed to me, I thought I had already reached the peak of love, but then another level unlocked. And I can’t wait to keep unlocking more. To discover new places, new dreams, and new depths of love, together.
Alex healed a part of me he probably doesn’t even realize.
So I want to share some songs that remind me of what he’s done for me:
“Wild As Her” – Corey Kent
For years, I struggled with feeling confident in my body. I've never been the XS girl, the petite type. I have an athletic build and I’m on the taller side. I wear a medium or large, size 9.5 shoes, sometimes even men’s sizes just so things fit right. It hasn’t always been easy to feel pretty. But Alex makes me feel beautiful all the time. Even now, in a big t-shirt while I write this. He tells me which outfits he loves, always reminds me how pretty I am, even when I don’t feel it. And he means it. The way he looks at me, like I’m the most beautiful woman in the world, has changed everything.
“Big Plans” – Why Don’t We
Alex makes everything fun. Every little thing we do feels like an adventure. It’s like living in golden hour all the time. He brings joy into every space we enter.
“Can You Hold Me” – NF
Depression isn’t easy to explain. And few people have ever truly understood what I needed in those moments, until Alex. He has this incredible way of just knowing. Sometimes he meets me in the darkness, not with solutions, but with his presence. And that alone reminds me I’m not alone.
“Bettin’ on Me” – Corey Kent
Most importantly, Alex lets me be me. He’s not afraid of my dreams, my career, or my complexities. He meets me where I am and still pushes me forward. What I love most about him is that he’s seen every side of me, my past, my fears, my hopes, and he still chooses me. Every single day.
“Two Is Better Than One” – Boys Like Girls ft. Taylor Swift
Going from single to fiancée is one of the best transformations I’ve ever experienced. I’ve told so many people: if even one small thing hadn’t lined up, we never would’ve met. The timing was all God. From our very first date, we both knew this was it. This was forever.
So now, when I think back to all those lonely nights, I just wish I could hug my younger self and say:
“It was all leading to this moment. You’re living your dream now.”
To all my single friends:
Focus on becoming the best version of you, for your future husband or wife. Don’t compare your path to anyone else's. It’s never too late. (Age really is just a number, baby.) Trust that God’s timing is always, always the best.
